January 10, 2013
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I’m Done
I’m so fucking done.
I can’t deal with this anymore.
Boys are shit.
My mental state is shit.
My eating habits are shit.
My friends (except for two of them, god bless them) are shit.
My sleep schedule is shit.
My physical state is somehow NOT shit, but it is also not excellent.
And I can’t kill myself (see the two good friends above) and I have no appropriate coping mechanisms. I am turning into a ball of a;jioeajpewiorj;dskf I honestly don’t even have words for how I feel or what I’m thinking or what is going on in my head. I have NO CLUE how to handle my life right now. And as I am DONE relying on the BFX, and usually I message him when I’m like this, and considering he is part (but definitely not all) of the problem, I have seriously no idea what to do or how to handle my life.
I want to get physically sick so that I have an excuse to not move from my bed for days on end. Because for some reason mental illness isn’t a viable reason to do that in our society.
Comments (1)
Empress do not say that. Sometimes yeah..life is fucked up..but you can’t let it keep you down…You just have to be strong in every way you can think of. Just try and keep a smile on your face even though things are hard. IF you want to talk on a more emotional level. Just send ,e a private message.