February 13, 2013
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Being in RI
The smallest things are making me irrationally angry.
I am anxious to the point of being barely functional about 90% of my waking life. That is not hyperbole.
I feel so totally alone all the time, even though I know there are people here in RI that do love me and care about me.
But the BFX left. We aren’t even really speaking. He promised he would always be there for me and he abandoned me, even though he knows I’m in a horrible place mentally. I’m truly starting to believe that if he could leave, everyone will eventually leave. I’m terrified.
Except my best friend M. He always stays – he is the only one that has stuck by me for the last 10 years. And that scares me, too.
Comments (1)
Not everyone’s going to leave you. Just stay strong and don’t let the bad thoughts get you down too much. <3