March 14, 2013
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And the rant streak continues
This is more whining in a similar vein as the M story so just… don’t bother.
There is this kid. He and I met… nearly 5 years ago now. And we really, really liked each other. Except I had a boyfriend and he had a girlfriend. I know his girlfriend and I don’t like her and frankly I’ve thought from day 1 that he deserved better but whatever. Regardless, he is still with her. They have been together since November, 2005. SEVEN AND A HALF FLIPPING YEARS. But anyway. He and I really really liked each other except for the whole significant others part. And now we don’t talk that often, but when we do it’s right back to flirting. Which is usually not a big deal because, in the past, I’ve been with someone when we talked. But not now. AND IT SUCKS. Because he is still an awesome person but he is never breaking up with his gf. It’s like the opposite of Taylor Swift. GUH.
And I still haven’t heard back from M. I’m starting to get concerned for his physical well-being… but I’m also incredibly livid and I want to punch him in the face. Because last night we decide that we might actually sleep together and then he bails on me. All day. Despite the fact that he might get laid and despite the fact that I’m supposed to be his best friend and despite the fact that he asked me to block Wednesday off in my schedule ON SATURDAY. So fuck him.
Then there is this other guy… he likes me but I don’t like him and he hasn’t spoken to me since I turned him down even though I enjoy his friendship and **sigh**
Haven’t heard from the BFX in over a week. That’s cool. Because we never were best friends or anything. And it isn’t like I spent half a year trying to make our friendship work while you just sat back and not only let it fall to shit but helped tear it down. And it isn’t like you still really wanted to take my fish for a reason I don’t understand when I couldn’t move them home so now you have my sick fish and won’t tell me how he’s doing. You’re real awesome and fuck you.
BOYS SUCK.
Plus I gained weight, which isn’t surprising considering I’ve been smoking so much just to cope with my anxiety. And I owe my school nearly $3000 because I completed 25% of the semester which means I only get 25% of my FAFSA aid even though my school is still charging me 60% tuition so now I have a balance that was previously covered by my loans. Did I mention that I only make around $225 a week at the present moment? Thank goodness my parents are willing to support me by letting me live at home free of charge and pay my cell phone bill and pay my car insurance. Seriously. That is the best thing in my life right now. Yay for finding positives at the end of a long rant blog!
