March 20, 2013
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Just Let it Go
So today was all kinds of insane.
Weird conversations with my best friend involving the BFX and the whole thing was just odd. I think she is secretly trying to fix things with us. I just don’t know if that’s even possible anymore, so its just awkward. But I don’t want to tell her no because at least this is her idea so he can get mad at her and not me. I know that sounds awful, but she worships him for no good reason and it would be good for her (and for our friendship) if there was a little more distance in that relationship. But they are big/little in our fraternity so… ugh. Weird. The whole thing is weird.
Plus things with M and some other guys is just getting weird. I’ll save that post for another day. But its just weird. Everything is weird.
My intake will be after the “read more” so you don’t have to read it unless you want.
Keep in mind that I’m going for healthy, not starving. For now. I’m fighting binges. So just. Ugh.
Also I smoked twice today so not eating was difficult. But this intake is a huge wake up call. No wonder I’m gaining weight.
Intake:
B: frosted flakes (110), milk (90), banana (100)
L: lean pocket (270), oreos (110)
S: popcorn (130), reeses (220)
D: blondie (100), thai soup (260), cookies (170)
TOTAL = 1560
