March 26, 2013

• I’m All Over The Place

  I know that this says “Tuesday, March 26″ but to me it’s still “Monday, March 25.” Just for your perspective. 

  I’m exhausted. It’s officially Passover, so nothing with wheat, flour, yeast, corn (that includes corn syrup), rice, etc. for the next 8 days. 

  I got into a political argument with some older members of my family about why my generation is failing to acquire good jobs. I decided to make one of those informative 10 minute YouTube videos about it and I didn’t even realize that I’ve been working for 5 hours on it now. Yikes. Hopefully I’ll finish it tomorrow or Wednesday, but I have a lot of other things to get done as well. I just know that if I don’t finish it soon I’ll forget about it. But I have to get my bank accounts straightened out so I can pay off the term bill that I got from dropping out of my old school which says it was due March 7 but I didn’t even get it in the mail until after then but I still should pay it off ASAP. Then I have to actually apply to my new school (even though I’m guaranteed to get in according to both my adviser and the admissions counselor I spoke with) and apply to another school that my mom works at just in case she can get me some money off my tuition in which case I’d go there instead. Then I also have to finish re-organizing everything from moving home (mostly paperwork and desk-related stuff) and finish a project I was supposed to have finished at the end of last semester and that I said I would do over winter break that I never did. Guh.

  Then, less importantly, last night a very drunk M was like “tomorrow you are coming to my house when I get home from class, we are getting stoned, and then I am ripping your clothes off.” And I asked if he would still feel that way sober and he was like “well hypothetically I wouldn’t be but probably,” whatever the fuck that means. From there it went:

  Me – Ok. Well lets go with this for now – we will smoke together tomorrow afternoon. We will see if anything happens from there.
  Him – I’m ripping your clothes off regardless
  Me – Are you sure you’re still going to feel this way tomorrow?
  Him – probably after smoking
  Me – then I’m still going to go into this as “we’ll get high and see what happens.”
  Him – Ok

  But then we ended up cancelling because it was snowing and he was running late from class and his mom got in a small fender bender and his grandma ended up in the hospital (unrelated to the car accident) and he said “we’ll do it Wednesday.” Soooo yeah.

  Intake stuff:

  Yesterday (Sunday, March 24)

  B: none
  L: thai noodles (250), cookie (50)
  D: steamed veggie dumplings (270), fortune cooke (30), reeses minis (90)
  S: candy (45)
  D2:cheese sandwich (250)
  TOTAL: 985

  Today (Monday, March 25)

  B:banana (100)
  L: pizza (175), oreos (115)
  D: ~1300-1500
  TOTAL: ~1700-2000

  But remember that I said Monday night dinner was out of the running considering it was the first night of Passover and you HAVE to eat certain things and you HAVE to drink 4 cups of wine (which is a lot of calories) and then my whole family makes so much freaking food and you HAVE to try it all or they get insulted PLUS my dad brought back some super authentic Jew food (that my family makes too but not the “old way”) from the ultra religious Jews in Brooklyn so I had to eat that, too. 

  You know, I’m trying to justify this to myself but really I’m still mad because I did so well Sunday and I know that if I didn’t have that stupid dinner I would have done great today, too. AND I stuck to my rules so since I fucked up Saturday I didn’t let myself smoke Sunday. I think that motivation helped lol

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