May 13, 2013

• Vent

  I’ll edit/update this later with actual stuff but right now I just need to vent.

  I have been doing EVERYTHING RIGHT for the last month and a half and I’ve only lost 4.5lb. In a month and a half. I’m eating below what is medically considered “healthy” but I’m intaking over 1000 each day (and I usually net between 800-1100. I’m really trying to be “healthy” without making myself panic). I’m exercising regularly, focusing on cardio but also doing a little strength training. I keep telling myself that I’m building muscle and losing fat and that is why the scale isn’t moving as much as I think it should but when I look in the mirror I don’t see anything changing. I’m working my ass off to stay hydrated, since for some reason that is always an uphill battle for me. I quit caffeine, I barely drink alcohol anymore. I don’t put creamer in my decaf. I don’t drink soda. I’ve cut out a lot of carbs. I eat plenty of protein. I take multivitamins. I try not to totally skip breakfast because I know that kickstarts your metabolism for the day. I’ve even cut back on the high snacks. Those intakes/nets that I mentioned earlier include those snacks. 

  What else can I do but start restricting even more? This is infuriating. I wanted to be at my first goal by the start of May – which would have meant dropping 5.5lb in 1 and a half months (TOTALLY REASONABLE) but I’m still a pound away and its halfway through May. I’m trying SO HARD to balance my starving tendencies and being healthy and I thought I was doing it but apparently not. And if this isn’t causing me to lose weight then I don’t know why being actually healthy would since I would be eating about 700 more calories a day. 

  I’m just SO FRUSTRATED. I can show you my intakes, outtakes, and nets for the last month. I keep track of everything. And I SHOULD BE LOSING MORE WEIGHT THAN THIS. a;kfjad;sio;fkjla;dakdsj;lk

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