July 1, 2013
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Day 9
Ok so the new plan, after totally fucking up days 7 and 8, is to go until Day 20, no more breaks, no more binges, no more leniency. That means my last day of this strict regimen is going to be Thursday, July 11. I was originally going to do 10 days, 2 off, then 7 more, but it ended up being 6 days, 2 “off,” and then 11 more. I know that that equals 19 days, but I want a nice even 20.
Today started off shitty (not food wise). Cleaning this tank is more of a bitch than I thought it would be. It is SERIOUSLY a pain in the ass times 1000. And my stuff is everywhere drying so my mom is going to kill me when she comes home. Fuck having to live here for the next 5 years. Oh and I woke up to a screen shot of Joy talking to her crazy ex – you know, the one who stalked her, threatened her, literally went into her bedroom and stole her stuff, and the one she literally hallucinates talking to her – and him saying she can still tell him anything. So yeah. That was good >_<
I hate my life. I need something different… but I’m too terrified to do anything else.
