June 21, 2013

• Focus

  Starting Sunday (since I always start my calorie weeks on Sundays) I am going to attempt to do 10 days of under 1000cal INTAKES. Not nets, intakes. 10 days. I know I can do that. I know I can. I just need to make sure to get plenty of protein and fiber in what I do eat; I will have to make careful about what foods I choose. I need to still be able to do my running and gym workouts. But my weight has actually gone back up despite staying under my BMR in intake every day and although my mom thinks I’m crazy I definitely think that I look like I’ve regained the 2lb the scale is telling me I regained and then some. 1000 calorie days for 10 days. Starting Sunday. I can do it. 

  I’d say that I’ll update more later, but there isn’t really anything else to say. Work sucks, M has a girlfriend now so he’s never going to have time for me (not like he wants to see me anyway or talk to me about anything of worth; he just keeps trying to pawn me off to therapy because I’m too much work), and my big brother got back together with his ex so there goes our time together (luckily gym time for him is sacred so I’ll still see him then, but last night he cut off my workout after only half an hour because he had to go meet her). Joy and I still haven’t talked since our fight on Tuesday. So be it. 

  Grabbing breakfast with a friend, gotta leave in 20 minutes and I’m still in my towel, so yeah. 

  Time to start focusing on what I can control (my weight and eating and exercise) and not on what I can’t (how alone I am/how little time my “friends” make for me anymore). I can do this.

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